What is a gift and a curse?

Hi readers, I was asked this question a few days ago by the most thoughtful man I know. I figured why not write about it? Off Impulse my first thought and answer to that question was awareness. As the days have gone by I’ve been wondering exactly how so. To me awareness is a gift and a curse because on either spectrum having too much or too little can be uplifting or a burden. I think having awareness is amazing but to live in it is like a never ending psychedelic trip, which isn’t terrible but the practice of presence 24/7 hasn’t been achievable in my life experience so far. The fact that you can be aware of things you aren’t okay with can be a burden that can ultimately harden you and your heart. The openness of all possibilities softens it. To be unaware can be a gift because you aren’t stuck with the knowledge of how bad things really are or can really be. Cursed because although ignorance is bliss it is still the fact of not knowing and that can be dangerous in a controlled environment. Ultimately I wouldn’t trade my awareness for a thing but I could definitely change how serious I take it. Until next time ciao.

Remarks about AI

 So yesterday I watched a Documentary on Netflix called What is AI? Let’s just start off by saying it brought me to a state of reflection and judgement towards myself. 1. I didn’t educate myself enough on exactly what AI is and 2. Based off what I did know I’ve considered myself against it but I’ve still decided to use it ever so often for creation which I know is wrong. So unfortunately I have to admit that I have used AI for more than a few of my blog posts. I have posted a total of 20 and I’d say numbers between 5-9 of them have been AI modified. I used AI to create this system of organization in my writing instead of being real trying to convey my message I opted out and chose what I thought was written perfection was really just robot writing. In response my writing and my view of my myself as a writer has gone down in morale amongst other things. I can honestly say after watching this documentary I won’t be using AI and I will absolutely be more careful as to where it shows up in my life even if it’s as simple as a search engine. I learned that AI doesn’t necessarily have a direct definition to what it is by humans and the definition it gives itself is “The ability of a computer or machine to copy human thinking and perform tasks like learning, reasoning, and solving problems.”

Well throughout this documentary it was thoroughly explained that this was not the intended result of the people who created the program itself, It was just given generalized topics from the internet along with a deep wide memorization of the entire internet. Wikipedia, Reddit you name it anything on the internet this computer base has memorized and rationalized it in order to feed you the answer it thinks is correct and based off how you respond as the user is what helps it program itself. The funny thing is after initial coding the program is able to teach and do whatever it wants to itself including copying the code millions and millions of times so it is not able to necessarily be controlled or stopped by any data system or human programmer. I could honestly keep going from how much energy and water the data centers are using to keep this system going to how our governments are using this as an automatic and artificially intelligent warfare amongst each other and how there is a race to super intelligence for the ultimate control over this globe. There are a lot more cons than pros in my personal opinion but if I have to leave off with one thing it would be that AI and AGI (Artificial General Intelligence) are becoming the way of the world. Smarter than humans supposedly. But be aware the more you engage and fund these programs those silent faces behind the brands you know and love are on their way to something much bigger. Super Intelligence which is supposedly smarter than humanity. Sounds a bit like the matrix?

End Transmission: Volume Two

 So the mirror broke, you've finally gotten to see your true reflection. A new one, one that was always there but needed you to do the work to bring her out. To see her. Must I say if you've made it this far I am extremely proud of you. I am proud of myself. 20 posts before my first year. My first blog and it is still something I want to and am willing to do. 

Looking back I put a lot of pressure on myself to make this thing perfect. To make sure I was bringing digestible awareness to the net. I realize now I didn't have to do that but there was nothing wrong with me wanting to. My intentions meant more than anything. It has taught me a lot. I feel as though the foundation of this blog is complete. It feels complete and that is a beautiful feeling for me. I now know it is time to let my artistry be free. No more uptight restrictions just real and raw.

Over these last 9 posts we've confronted our subconscious selves. Our addictions, our unhealthy habits, the way we love ourselves and others. We've killed the perspective of ourselves that weren't truly us. We decided to change what our negative experiences said we were and was quite successful at it. With that being said I am proud of us. I am proud of our honesty with one another. I am proud of the true love we are giving and accepting to and for ourselves.

This is the second and last transmission of this blog. The ending of the foundation and the beginning of new creation. Freedom to speak about anything is what I am truly here for, what I hope you all are here for. No more holding back. We have created a new frequency and trust me I charged a lot for this one. Until my next post xoxo.

File 019: Integration: Who I Am Becoming

 Hey, Long time no see. I guess I'll get straight into the integration phase of this transmission. All the topics we've discussed were absolutely useful and neccessary, but now that we are moving forward in not only ourselves but our journey. We have to be honest with the information we've retained and how we are applying it. To integrate means to combine different parts, systems, or groups so they form a single, functioning whole. So now that we've come towards the very end of this volume what have you noticed? How have you put it all together? Me personally I've realized that being the keeper of knowledge is not enough. I have been integrating this old and new found knowledge with action, because otherwise it is stagnant. Stagnancy is not a place I like to be. The truth is Integration is action and making yourself whole within your mind, physical reality, emotions, creativity and finances is the answer. 9x outta 10 when those are whole you are who you've always wanted to be. Who you've always been deep inside. So who am I becoming? Who am I? Is who I've always wanted to be. Whole. However that looks for me. I say this because wholeness does not equal perfection. It means acceptance, willingness to change what you don't want to keep anymore, being and feeling the way you truly want to. Who are you becoming? Who are you? Is it who you've always wanted to be? Who you always could have been had you integrated your knowledge into action? Knowing can be enough but for some including myself it is not always enough. It requires more action to really know. It requires a continuation of a sort. So I'll ask you all a few questions I've been asking myself over the past few months that has brought me to this continuation of knowing who I am and who I've become as I continue growing. 

Who am I becoming? What do I stand for? What do I feel? What do I need? What am I willing to fight for? How clearly can I think and speak? How big am I willing to think? What do I allow myself to enjoy? What am I building that will last?